Standing where you are is also Going Somewhere

Sounds absurd? Yes, to me too.

We are core believers of hard work coming from a generation of hustlers. You want to move places, show growth, and be aces in the life of cards and that’s when sleep comes to our eyes in the night.

I believed the same. And hence, it got me into a den of anxieties. I know, I know. What will a 23-year-old kid know about real-world problems?

But I'll tell you what, let’s get personal. Because we hardly ever talk real, even with people we say we love. Why?

But I want to get personal today because writing emails aren’t getting me any closer to myself. Let’s get behind the ‘ Sincerely’, ‘Yours only’ and ‘Let me know’.

Talking about being a kid, not long ago I was a kid, still am today according to many. And I agree and honestly, I am happy to be one.

For me, these last few months have been weirdly tough.

You know as teenagers we all so firmly believe that getting that job, buying that car, making that bank balance is going to make us happy. Not long ago, even I wrote an article about when my ONE DAY. Apparently, working in an advertising agency was beyond my dreams and it meant the world to me when I lived my first day of the job at a core advertising firm.

Then I dreamt of making my dad smile and I got into another job. Then I dreamt having a small business of my own and I stugggggled to start it all by myself and then I did it. And then I dreamt of getting into my dream course and now I have a choice of course offers to pick from. And last few months, I lost touch from all of it. Ended a relationship I thought was perfect, got my heart broken everyday for the last few weeks, gave up on a home I built with my own hands. And I thought I lost it all, even when I got it all.

I started working on ground floor, got on second with my second firm, then fourth and now i am sitting on the corner of ninth floor of my office writing this to the girl who started writing on first floor.

Past me , I am sorry I know you dreamt a lot and expected a lot from me but we came to this town with one suitcase and we are leaving with one. All I can tell you is we have lived alot, all that you dreamt of and couldnt even dream of, we have done it all.

There was a time when I couldnt wait to come to this town, and today i cant wait to go back home, roam around my garden with my paa in boxers, or watch serials with maa, go have an icecream with my little one and now we have a little puppy in the family to hook us all in a bunch of giggles.

I know I have lived my ONE DAY here. And i will live it somewhere else also.

But what made me smile today is that i am going back to live the same ‘EVERYDAY’ for a while. Sometimes standing where you are is good. Its getting you somewhere and that somewhere is a place of consistency, a place of comfort, a place of you being you.

I have changed places, companies, homes and circles. But today I realized I am the same girl, in love with the same pink, with the same music, with the same people. This heartbreak and anxiety has become a proof of being the same at my core, no matter how much I grow.

And before I leave from where I am now, I needed to know this that I am never gonna change, my smile will be the same and you’ll find the same heart everytime you see me.

And knowing that is more than the world for me.

So if you are still humble in your tone when you talk to a junior, or have a smile when someone opens the door for you. So if you still wait eagerly to go back home and hold your daughter in your arms, or have the same whiskey with the same old college friends, know that you have gone somewhere even though you stayed in the same place. Because you found your home even after roaming the world, and not everybody is lucky enough to find their way back home. You did it. You stayed where you are.